In the past few weeks I have had some interesting challenges that totally zapped me, allowing me to “hit rock bottom”. Crying everyday just wondering where I was going and what was I doing. Feeling just exhausted like the very core essence of me had just been sucked out.
As I began to gradually pick up still emotionally and physically exhausted, I began to sought out in my head some of the things that were concerning me and how could I worked through these feelings of helplessness, hopelessness and total lack of confidence as to my worth or value.
I hadn’t felt this bad since 20 years ago when I was recovering from an attack on my life. Saying to myself that this isn’t bad, nothing really bad has happened so why do I feel like this.
Like most people I find change difficult, I myself didn’t really admit this. Believing that I can be quite flexible and yes I can especially when it comes to other people and external events. But when it comes to changing things within me and what I am doing, I came to realize that I can be very rigid. I also have another issue, I find it very difficult to reach out and actually bear my soul that I am not doing so well.
So during this crash I have come to realize that I did need to put some changes into place with how I do things and also with what I have to share.
My first step was talking with myself getting my head in a place where I knew where I was coming from. Then sharing this with my husband and children. What shouldn’t have been so surprising but was just so awesome as to how supportive and understanding they were. Being well aware that there is nothing that they could actually DO!!! as such but just knowing they were behind me was a giant step forward.
As a family we have been through so many traumatic experiences but to see the work and commitment that has gone behind this come to fruition and to have such a loving, warm and understanding between us was just awesome.
My next step was to reach out, no I didn’t need counselling I have worked through and had so much counselling over the years. I have done work with Anthony Robbins – Awaken the Giant within helping me to move past my attack. I have utilized Steven Covey’s – 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, Louise Hay, Doreen Virtue – utilizing Angel Therapy.
So deep down I knew what I had to do. So the reaching out was making a friend, engaging a new friend. Wow how scary is that, but my God how powerful. This lady was referred to me as to my supporting her through a crisis over 12 months ago and this crisis was telling me that we needed to be together as a team.
Once again this experience was awesome the lady is Kirsty Pickering Bott who has worked through her trauma of her husband walking out on her 6 months pregnant with their fourth child. From that Kirsty has gone on to not only bring herself out of the drama but to share her experiences, downfalls, pitfalls, challenges and most importantly how she has found the strength to rise above to go on to live a positive life with her four adorable boys. Kirsty shares this with her website and blogs: That Noise is Mine
The next step was to then reach out and bear my soul to my webmanager, who has also come to be a very dear friend as well as work colleague and business coach. How hard is that you aren’t meant to bear your soul to a work colleague. I must say before I would recommend this, you need to know that you can trust this person 110%. This I knew with David as we have worked together for nearly 3 years one on one. So I knew I could trust him, but it was still difficult, but once again it shouldn’t have surprised me but he was great and supportive.
Now “The Next Chapter” has come about because of how many people over the years I have been able to help and support through their life’s challenges and traumas by sharing my story, little by little. Encouraging, Believing in them and allowing them to come to positive and realistic solutions.
After my attack working through my own healing, I realized firstly the very foundation that could cause disease and throw you into a spin of never becoming well or functional again. I also realized, remembering that my career was in Naturopathic medicine that if I didn’t get myself well, then how could I help anyone else to become well.
A client asked me this week – “What did I think the underlying cause of disease was?” Through my personal experiences and working with my clients over the years, it is learning about your emotions, coming to understand them, accept them but then allowing yourself to recover from them. Then the core foundation is in understanding the “Why”. For me this was firstly that I didn’t want to live the rest of my life feeling like this, I wanted to be a positive influence and person within my family’s life and I believed that I could help my clients far more by sharing these life truths that I had found and it wasn’t just out of a book or getting caught up in the height of making things and life a lot harder than it should be. Obtaining and maintaining health isn’t found in a vitamin bottle or a drug cabinet, it is found within you.
So “The Next Chapter” I am going to share with you these important “Truths” to bring about Happiness, Health, Healing and Improving relationships. Improving relationships isn’t just about other people it is also about developing a loving and positive relationship with YOU!!!